Mother's Day....Sadness

With Mother's Day coming up I found this song on another blog and thought that it was a quite appropriate song for the way that I feel with everything going on in my life.  I seems like the one thing that I really want is just out of reach.  Everyone around me seems to have a child or is expecting a child and here we are still waiting.  I know that there are a lot of people out there who have been trying a lot longer than we have, but it is all so flustering.  I hate the fact that people who are not ready, cannot afford, or do not want children can have them while here I am wanting a child so bad that I cannot stand it with empty arms.  I hope and pray that soon everyone that I know who is suffering through infertility will get their bundles of joy.

ER (Egg Removal)

 

My awesome fluffy socks for the ER (they kept my feet all warm and toasty)

Yesterday DH and I headed up for our ER.  We had to be to the office by 7:00 so that meant a really early morning for me (Len worked the night shift so he had been up since the day before).  I got up at 4:15 and go my shower and was ready when DH got home and off we went.  I was so excited and nervous all at the same time.  I could not believe how quickly everything happened.  Well, we get to the office and they call me back.  I get into my gown and get in bed.  They nurses start to ask me questions, when was your last meal, are you allergic to any medication, etc.  The anesthesiologist finally arrives and they start looking at the veins in my hands.  All he keeps saying is wow, you really cannot see any veins.  They kept trying to warm up my hands with their hands and warm compresses.  Finally Brian (the anesthesiologist) started to try and put the IV in.  He numbed my hand and then tries he could not find anything.  They tried at least three times in each hand, twice on my right inner elbow, once on the right inner wrist.  After all of this Brian was willing to let Lenny try to get the IV in.  He came back and was about ready to try when one of the nurses came in and would not allow him to try since he was not employed by Ruby.  Right about that time Brian got the IV in my left inner elbow.  I have never been stuck so many times.  It took at least 10 times before they finally succeeded.  I really hope that I go not get sick anytime soon and need an IV.  After the IV was inserted they moved me into procedure room and got me all set-up and started sedating me.  The procedure took about half the time that it took to get the IV inserted.  Brian told me when I woke-up that the first thing out of my mouth was how many eggs did you get?  This does not surprise me at all, but I have no memory of this.  They got 6 eggs.  We were doing ICSI.  They came in and explained the procedure.  They had to use some type of enzyme to eat away out the egg lining.  Once that was completed they would be able to see the number of mature eggs and then would place one of the best sperm into each mature egg.

They just called this morning and confirmed that all 6 eggs were mature and all fertilized.  I am ecstatic!!!!  They will call back tomorrow morning with an update on growth and to hopefully set up a time for the transfer.  I am hoping that all will continue to grow and that we will have a couple awesome ones to transfer and a few more to freeze.